This year I became a Mom. (Motherhood will ROCK YOUR WORLD in good ways AND hard ways too!)
We had an international move.
We lived with my Mom & Chris for 6 months.
We had no car for 4 months.
Logan looked for jobs FOREVER until the right one came along.
We struggled financially. At one point I even had to return something in order to use my store credit to purchase a friend a birthday gift. It was TIGHT and VERY stressful.
Then Logan got a job... We got a car... And we moved into our own place LAST WEEKEND.
I feel like I have been holding my breath for 10 months.... with stress, anxiety, & overwhelming highs and lows. I could cry just thinking about how we are finally SETTLING DOWN. I can nest. Unpack our storage items. Figure out a new "normal." A routine. Familiarity. Consistency.
We have come SO far and I am desperately trying to allow my whole being to just take a deep breath and relax. The transitional phase has come to a close and we are back on our feet.
I know we will have trials and tribulations in the future, but for the moment... after 10 very stressful months, I feel like we are finally where we are supposed to be and settled. I am grateful. I would be lying if I said all the ulcers are gone and tension in my shoulders has passed... because they are still there. A reminder of what we've walked through this year.
But we are still here. Still standing. And I wouldn't change any of it for the world! BIG LIFE CHANGES happening all at once will rock you and challenge you in so many ways. I have got to start trusting the Lord more to provide whatever we need because He always does.... So why do I always feel the need to fight that battle alone? You would think I would have learned that lesson by now.
So I sit here in my new little office with empty boxes all around me and a "To Do" list a mile long and breathe a sigh of relief. It seemed like it took a lifetime to get here...and I'm so glad we finally made it.... HOME.
Such a sweet post, Abby! I'm happy for your trust in the Lord and how has provided for you. :)ReplyDelete
I stumbled upon your blog several months ago and now read regularly! I'm happy to hear that your lives are settling down after all the changes this year. I also wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your honesty about the tough stuff like money being tight. These issues aren't easy but I really think the tough times make me appreciate the good times all the more!ReplyDelete