If I am being honest, this is really the FIRST week I have felt like myself since September. I have been active as a Mom, wife, and business owner AND I have even made time to be social and spend time with my friends. Up until the past week or so, I had basically isolated myself from everyone and everything. If I could get to the store AND cook dinner, it was a BIG day for me. This week I have found so much hope, joy, and peace. The very things I have been praying for over the past 8 weeks.
The experience I just walked through is still very much in my rearview mirror but as it gets smaller and smaller into the past, I take deep breaths of gratitude that it is behind me and we are victoriously moving into a better season by the grace of God. I really think I will share the whole story at some point when it doesn't feel so very RAW.
What I CAN say is that it brought me into a deeper relationship with the Lord and He has been so NEAR. He has spoken to me in very personal ways.... He really is such a gentleman and knows what will speak to each of our hearts. He has spoken through music, scripture, books, sermons, and people. All in different ways. I now possess a newfound appreciation for life, my physical health, my mental health, and my emotional/ spiritual health. As Max Lucado told me last month, "Be KIND to yourself." Basically - take CARE of yourself. No one else is going to. So I have taken time to pour into myself so that I have something to offer others instead of pulling from the reserve tank every day.
A few verses that have really been my ANTHEM lately are:
"I have not been givin a spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind." 2 Timonthy 1:7
"He is steady in his mind that Jehonva will take care of him." Psalm 112:7
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
Praise Him who is ALWAYS victorious in our weaknesses.