This is one of those days.
One where the sun is shining, my kids are both napping, and I actually have time to sit down and write. Something that pours out of me sometimes.
FIRST of all, last week I was able to wean myself completely off sleeping aids/ medication. We are talking... the first time in 6 months that I haven't had to take medicine or something OTC to help me sleep. I had no idea what a journey this would take me on, but I am so grateful that the hardest part is in my rearview mirror now. This is going to sound so strange because I wouldn't wish last fall on my worst enemy.... but I am glad I went through it.
Did I really just type that?
Yes. I am GLAD. The refining process it took me through made me uncover places in my life where I needed to release control (which was causing much of the anxiety) and trust God. It also brought me to such a humbling place realizing how BIG God is... and how TINY we are. YET. HE CARES ABOUT US. So very much. He is so very personable. I know Him in such a deeper and more intimate way now that I never would have known had I not gone through such a trial.
It also made me a better prayer warrior and friend. I survived those months with the support and prayers of my close friends and family so I know now the POWER of PRAYER and how much it can change our circumstances.
So I sit here. Happy. Joyful. At PEACE. Content. Sunshine outside and sunshine in my heart. I am in a NEW season. My baby girl Chloé just turned 1 and it makes me feel like I can put this past year behind us. The BEST is yet to come. A fresh start. New beginnings. New chapters. New DREAMS for our little family. It's a NEW DAY and I am singing His Praises for ALL He has done... and He has done MIGHTY things!
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Thank you thank you for this blog! My sister sent it to me this morning as encouragement while I'm walking a similar path and it has been such a blessing! Thankful for your willingness to share.ReplyDelete
Of course! Please let me know if you want to connect - I know it can feel very lonely!Delete
Its still a little raw but I would absolutely love to connect once I have a little time to process. My sister passed along the blog and said you were a friend of a friend and I'm so glad she did. My email address is firstname.lastname@example.org. Thank you again for your openness with your story and willingness to encourage other women through similar stuff- you're right, it can feel very lonely!ReplyDelete