It has been exactly ONE full year since my insomnia reared its ugly head. The search began medically for a diagnoses... lifelong anxiety is what they said. I am still convinced it was somehow related to postpartum and the fact Chloé wasn't sleeping through the night.
The search also began spiritually. Where was the root of this anxiety? How could I identify it, heal from it, and move forward.
Counseling. Prayer. Deepening dependance and reliance on the Lord brought FREEDOM and transformation.
God's timing is always perfect. You may think it coincidence but I think its a sweet gift. We are one year from when it began and THIS YEAR Logan and I are headed to Cabo for some much needed rest and relaxation after this hard year. It is also the same weekend that I am officially off all medications. I haven't had to take sleeping medication since March of this year and I am almost entirely weaned off my anxiety medication.
My marriage is Stronger. Tougher. Deeper.
My priorities are in check.
My faith is tried, tested, and TRUE.
God NEVER wastes your pain. He uses it as a bridge to others.
I wouldn't wish this past year on anyone but it has not been a waste and I am grateful for the journey it took me on. LOTS to celebrate this weekend!