I have already prepared myself for the fact that I am going to have some sort of culture shock/ loneliness after the initial excitement settles down. That being said, I do have some pretty real fears:
- Fear of people forgetting about us - I know that sounds really odd, but I have always loved being in the know, perfect attendance at every event - birthday/ graduation/ baby shower/ wedding - and that is just not going to be in the cards after we move due to finances and logistics. I think my fear is missing out so much that when we move back someday, everyone will have moved on and people will have taken our place. (BUT I fully realize that is just my insecurity)
- Fear of not making new friends - I can make friends with a wall. But that wall speaks English in my imagination. SO, I just hope I can get familiar enough with French to where people can get to know me and my personality rather than the American girl who fumbles over her French.
- Fear of the unknown - I have never lived far away, much less in a foreign country. I am such a planner and organizer, that the unknown overwhelms me, but I am trying my hardest to channel that into excitement.
How you can help? Keep me updated on your lives!!! This blog thing is a great outlet for me, but it is very one-sided. I would love to receive updates via email whenever you have a few extra minutes... and of course, I will be actively on Twitter & Facebook and all that jazz to stalk you guys!
This time... next week... I shall be in France! (pinching myself!)